How Do I Get Me Alone?
June 10, 2009 
Mr. Blue Eyes returned from Colorado just about exactly 72 hours ago (3 days, for those of you who aren't in the mood to do the math) and it has been everything that any lonely housewife could hope it could be. I couldn't even hardly allow myself to realize how much I missed him until he was almost back here, and then all of those emotions culminated into immense happiness at being together again. We just don't do well apart.
My love... There's only him in my life. The only thing that's right. My first love... He's every breath that I take... He's every step I make.
But now that Diana Ross and Lionel Richie's voices are out of my head, I realized that there are two other little voices that remain. One of them constantly tells me, "I need my juice. I need you to hold me. I need my tractor. I need... I need..." The other is more of a babbler, although occasional words do come out, like, "Sthiiiiinee..." (calling my sister's dog, Sydney) and, "Tap, tap, tap..."
These, in case you haven't already guessed, are the voices of my children. They've been in my head for over three weeks straight. I love them. I love their little voices. But I needed to get away. I needed to be alone. I needed to not be on constant high alert for their safety. I needed some peace and quiet.
I wonder why Little Blue Eyes says, "I need..." all the time. Hmmm... I need to ponder that one.
So tonight, after Mr. Blue Eyes got home from work, I slithered away with my computer and my camera (whose battery is dead, unnoticed by me in my current state of camera neglect) to our cozy little loft and here I sit, the room blissfully quiet except for the quiet whirring of the ceiling fan overhead.
Ahhhhhhh......
I really did need this.
Reader Comments (2)
For whatever reason, my dumb blog is not updating my blogger friends blogs....its really not a good thing...*pout*. I know whatcha mean about alone time. This week is just nuts for our schedule...every night this week is something....ack! Calgon....take me away...yay, for alone time. Enjoy Laura!
I'm glad that you are finally together and that you were able to get some "me" time. I remember those days all too well. It seems now that my kids are grown, but not all gone, I still need this. I think every soul yearns for time to connect back with itself without the hussle of everyday chaos.